a little bean update (with pics)

Today I’m not going to post a whole bunch of mush on how much motherhood has changed my life (but yes, it has) and I’m not going to rant for long, I’m just going to post a few pics of my little mate. He never fails to put a smile on my face and hopefully he’ll have the same effect on you.

Much love xx


stirling smile

the stork has arrived!

I know, it’s been a bit quiet on the fly girl front – brewing a baby really took it out of me. Not to mention that he stayed in to cook for an extra two weeks! But he’s finally here, so I’d love to introduce you.

little Stirling Alan

little Stirling Alan

All the clichés are true. How can you not wake up every morning wanting to do more, be better, and feeling absolutely inspired (even on a couple of hours’ sleep!) when you wake up with this little face beside you?

the countdown is on

So we have just over four months to go until we jet off to Fiji to get married… it’s an exciting yet daunting thought!
It’s stressful putting the whole thing together… Ceremony, reception, decorations, dress, travel arrangements etc, but what has really blown us away is the reaction we’ve had from our friends and family.
We kind of thought no one would really come other than our parents because it’s a bit of a hassle, especially in early December, but the support we’ve had for our decision to marry overseas has been overwhelming. So many of our friends and family are coming over to share this with us and I think this is what makes it so special for us. As well as a wedding, it’s going to be a reunion too!
Most of Fiancé’s family are in New Zealand so he doesn’t get to see them much, and so many of our friends are now living interstate or overseas (everyone’s growing up and getting careers!). Some of our parents’ close friends are coming too, which is not only very exciting for us but also a testament to the effect close friendships have on our lives and a reminder of how important these friendships are.
The Sofitel Resort and Spa in Denarau is the perfect venue and the ceremony and reception are nearly all organised. We have the amazing photographers at Kama Catch Me and the beautiful Liza Emanuele has nearly finished my dress… I feel like a princess. Sarah at Simplethings Press has designed some stunning invitations for us and we can’t wait to send them out in the next few weeks.
I’ve lost 10kg so far – “wedding photos are forever”! If possible I would like to head over with a new bikini for every day and wear them with pride… but of course I need to make sure I’m not burnt to a crisp on the day. Fiancé is looking pretty fine too but hey, he always does (don’t tell him, but that’s why I’m marrying him).

Other than that all I can say is… This really is going to be the best week of our lives.


Kava Ceremonny and Port Denarau. Images from Sofitel Fiji.

how to build a bridge

Everyone knows the saying “you can’t pick your family”. Usually, my response to this gem would be “well, why would you want to anyway?” I am very close to my family, although I don’t see any of them as much as I’d like to, but I don’t need to see them every day to know that they’re there for me whenever I need them, and vice versa.

Well it turns out maybe some are more than others!

I hate fighting with family. It makes me feel absolutely wretched. Recently, I had a bit of a tiff with a couple of members of my family over something really trivial. Yet, three weeks on I still think about it every day and get hurt and angry and upset all over again.

I’m usually the kind of person who forgives very easily (my Mum would even say too easily) but never forgets. But this time, there’s been no closure to the situation and every day I feel more awkward about it. I don’t want to alienate myself from the people I love over something so small but I’m honestly finding it really hard to let go.  I feel like the whole thing was really unfair and unnecessary and I hate that there seems to be nothing I can do about it.

I want to go over to their houses and just give them a big hug and tell them I love them, but pride stops me dead in my tracks. I don’t want this to be seen as an apology or an admission of guilt for something I didn’t do! I don’t want to let them win and I don’t want to let poor behaviour win.

Yet something in my brain tells me to grow up, be the bigger person and “build a bridge and get over it!” It’s the classic Angel v. Devil type scenario. 

Another argument between the two sides is this: one side says I might as well apologise because no one else will and the responsibility to make everything okay again always rests on my shoulders, and let’s face it, I probably did do something wrong because I usually do; whereas the other side says: screw it! Stick up for yourself once in your bloody life, woman!

I don’t think I’ll build that bridge just yet. Maybe I’ll build a canoe instead and head downstream…

You can’t pick your family, you can only fly away from them!

i’m in love with a shooting star…

some things truly blow me away.

anything space-y (galaxies, shooting stars, this solar eclipse), always does it. as i’ve said before, i love the feeling of being insignificant. but sometimes, it’s about the little things.

people say that a lot: “it’s just the little things”. it could even be a cliché, but everyone knows clichés are always true otherwise they wouldn’t be a cliché. and sometimes life IS about the little things. 

take rain for example. i love the smell. i love the sound of it on the roof. i love being rugged up inside playing board games or some other family activity while watching water gush down the windows (like being a little kid and going through the car wash – remember how cool that was?)

or the feeling of getting home on a freezing cold day and putting on a warm pair of socks. or the look on my puppy’s face when he sees me at the front door each night. or when my little sisters give me a big hug. or when my girlfriends and i get together with a bottle of wine and talk too much about our boyfriends.

i love it when my clients pop in just to say “hi!” or they call me before an appointment to see if i want a coffee. i love it when i feel like i’ve genuinely taught someone at work something useful. i love it when my boyfriend asks me to help on his work projects.

but most of all, i’m in love with life. a lot of the time i forget to be, but when i remember, i appreciate just how lucky i am to be here, able to smell the rain and watch the stars and get up at 6am to help Boyfriend at work (well… maybe not the 6am part!)

bad, bad leroy brown

…the peskiest dog in the whole damn town!

But he’s still pretty cute, I have to say.

I was never a dog person really, but Leroy really is our best friend. He drives me nuts, but every day when I get home he’s so excited to see me and it’s the best feeling. Whenever I’ve had a bad day he always tries to make it better and although I complain of him driving me crazy, I think sometimes it’s really him keeping me sane!

As for Boyfriend, that’s a different story…

he’s the man

A picture tells 1000 words, so rather than tell you how much I love The Boyfriend, I thought I’d share a few pictures. I could tell you the hundreds of reasons why he’s so important to me, but all you need to know is this: he makes me want to be a better person, and every day life is better because he’s by my side. 


Simba, it is time.

The previous blog had been neglected because, honestly, my motivations for starting it no longer existed and most of the time I had no idea what to say.

This time, it’s different. I am sitting in an airport lounge about to head home after an African escapade and I have two thoughts in mind. The first: this world is an incredible place and I can’t believe I somehow managed to forget this; and two: I am incredibly blessed to have some amazing people in my life who keep me going day after day and who make my life wonderful.

I am starting from scratch today, acknowledging the past and moving on. I am dedicating this new set of thoughts and posts to the beautiful people I have been lucky enough to meet on my journeys, and to my wonderful man and incredible family who support me all the way.